the long waits
your hesitant touch
the harsh tone you use when tired
no matter how tired
you should love them
with all your heart
and show them you care
if their scared comfort them
if they are worried
but learn it's not true
show your relive for them
i would trade my life
for your safety
this all hurts
but then i see you
i cant help but fall in love
over and over
your always in my head
always in my heart
i will never stop loving
you are the only one for me
everything stops hurting
you mean everything to me
no matter how tired and cold you get
i'll be here waiting
counting my heartbeats till i die
Swing around
Locked closed
Weight on my chest
One rope hanging
One memory
Two hearts once touched
Heads held high
Friendship
Relationship
Siblings
Parents
Anyone can be it
Within my locket
Forever special
You will always be
To remind me of
My biggest regret
I let you nearly walk away...
It grabs you, holds you tight
Never letting go, it's suffocating choke-hold
Cuts off precious life
Nothing comes it all goes
Alone oh so alone, no light to lift me
Taunting the edges of my sanity
But never letting me touch to feel
What i could have if things had been different
Such sweet hatefull isolation
Accept it i can't escape even if i try
A one way window that they try to understand
But they never will what do they know
A social life? friends? ha!
All a far away child's dream never had
What's childhood again?
We hurt
We play
We blame
We laugh
We hate
We love
We run
We walk
We shared secrets
We tell on each other
We may fall out
We may make up
But no matter what happens,
Our blood never lies it reminds us,
You are my brother
Fear of rejection and pain
The only things which give
This meaningless exsistance
A meaning
To run forever
Door closed
Pitch black
Once opened
No way back
Unwanted love
Warms the ice
Eyes
See all yet nothing
Mind confirms yet leaves mysteries
Heart
Reaches out yet keeps away
Butterfly wings
Show beauty yet danger
We can control our minds
Forever loyal
But our hearts are ready
To betray us at a
Moment's notice
if i could i would bleed it all out
write out all i did wrong
help me leave behind a reason
for them to miss me when i'm gone
i've taken a beating from life for the shit
that i brought to you
i think of the thousand lies and
found my truths along with my regret
i cleaned my slate with shaking hands
ending my self for a new life to take
my place and make amends
both of us can never be perfect
i'm aware of what i've done
i just want to forget
rest your mind at ease i have paid
i have paid for what i have done