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Is there no one which to depened Ow when will it end I feel like i am trying to defend Everyone From what i may do I need a friend Someone that Understands That wont take sides I want to mend But i not think that i can That what i always defended My own views Are always distoreted My heart is floored When the things get to scary I just close up I may be a pillar of strength But in the end I am just an egg shell Broken on the floor I know no men at arms are gonna try to repair me Because i need to ment this shell alone Then i can truly mend and sort out the stack Of words rushing to escape my mouth Or even my fi

.. by sam817, literature

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The things I want to say are many and varied The things that make my head spin My heart flutter But yet they are locked Away The decisions I have made For good Or for bad Have lead me to this fate What I wanted to say I have hidden far away You may think that I am like the rest You probably think I am a pest But I tell you one thing The words I want to say are getting closer to the surface I want at this moment to just fade away My head heart hurts I vowed never to hurt you To hurt anyone I have done that but also hurt the one thing I never thought I could Myself I blown it all away And for what a A distant dream

. by sam817, literature

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The thing I have taken I no I cannot give back But the thing I have broken I hope to repair one day I may not be a mechanic or a psychologist But one day in the suture I wish to repair that thing I know you're is broken and so is mine No matter what u say the feelings are still there But maybe I was too immature to Say what I wanted to say Or I was afraid But one day mark my words I will mend that item You may feel betrayed I feel guilty You have been my one and only But just wait Watch this space

Fix, Mend, End by sam817, literature

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Fix, Mend, End

Fix, mend, end. Don't lock me out For I shall not mock, Don't lock me out Of the love I will not, Knock. Each and every part of it My feelings are mile high for it, But why are trying to defend The life that should end. But you can't depend On a life someone's trying to lend Even if it bends, To fit around yours and mend. But the life I am trying to mend, With the lend, Cannot sooth the life as You are trying to defend. So please take the lend, And let in mend, The more you defend, The harder it is to end. The life i want to mend , Is the one I wish would end That is the life of a soul I love, Should end. And be fi

You Say by sam817, literature

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You Say

You Say You think I don't want you, You are say you're going to leave. From one hug to one second. You are like Ice. It has always been the same You standing there wanting it all Actually having nothing. Your life is spent Mine is fresh. It is like walking on egg shells. Eggshells are small, But so is your self, Respect. You care not for me or What I stand for, Just that I am here You wish to be removed from my life, I am not going to waste the effort, You want it, Not me. Sam817

A Case of the What if's? by sam817, literature

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A Case of the What if's?

What If The feeling of dread The bitter taste The loathing The not understanding Never know The feeling of if only i was there The what if? What if u do something u didn't mean to? What if it doesn't go to plan? A case of the what if's? What if Charles Babbage Never made his calculation engine? Would someone else have made it Would we know each other? Would I be writing this on plastic and metal? Would this ever be red? Where are you? How are you? How is your life? Everything ok? Would there ever be a need for a missile guidance system In my hand. Martin Cooper, may have made it But we all subscribe to it The on

you may girl by sam817, literature

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you may girl

You may, Flaunt, Taunt, And frustrate. But this may be a shock, But you will never stay. The world is changing, And to my bitter end, The lust I showed will, Surly be forgot. You are a blind mouse in a big Bright world But I am the fly with a thousand eyes You may show no emotion and all you do is play But has I have said before no one will ever stay For those that play and never stay will surely forgot

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A Case of the What if's? by sam817, literature

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59 heartbeat by Raxla, literature

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59 heartbeat

the long waits your hesitant touch the harsh tone you use when tired no matter how tired you should love them with all your heart and show them you care if their scared comfort them if they are worried but learn it's not true show your relive for them i would trade my life for your safety this all hurts but then i see you i cant help but fall in love over and over your always in my head always in my heart i will never stop loving you are the only one for me everything stops hurting you mean everything to me no matter how tired and cold you get i'll be here waiting counting my heartbeats till i die

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83. strangle by Shinjitsu-no-tenshi, literature

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83. strangle

It grabs you, holds you tight Never letting go, it's suffocating choke-hold Cuts off precious life Nothing comes it all goes Alone oh so alone, no light to lift me Taunting the edges of my sanity But never letting me touch to feel What i could have if things had been different Such sweet hatefull isolation Accept it i can't escape even if i try A one way window that they try to understand But they never will what do they know A social life? friends? ha! All a far away child's dream never had What's childhood again?

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fear of by Raxla, literature

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fear of

Fear of rejection and pain The only things which give This meaningless exsistance A meaning To run forever Door closed Pitch black Once opened No way back Unwanted love Warms the ice Eyes See all yet nothing Mind confirms yet leaves mysteries Heart Reaches out yet keeps away Butterfly wings Show beauty yet danger We can control our minds Forever loyal But our hearts are ready To betray us at a Moment's notice

30. guilt by Shinjitsu-no-tenshi, literature

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30. guilt

if i could i would bleed it all out write out all i did wrong help me leave behind a reason for them to miss me when i'm gone i've taken a beating from life for the shit that i brought to you i think of the thousand lies and found my truths along with my regret i cleaned my slate with shaking hands ending my self for a new life to take my place and make amends both of us can never be perfect i'm aware of what i've done i just want to forget rest your mind at ease i have paid i have paid for what i have done

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Apr 27
United Kingdom
Deviant for 16 years
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Current Residence: uk
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Favourite genre of music: rockish
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Favourite style of art: drawn or pixel
Operating System: win32 xp pro
MP3 player of choice: ipod first gen shuffle
Shell of choice: a black one with spikes
Wallpaper of choice: alucards eyes
Skin of choice: black
Favourite cartoon character: the cat out of trigun
Personal Quote: "perieodically"

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adrian smith,dark horse,temari19

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cool runnings

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celldweller, pendulum

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terry pratchett

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got many

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pencil, rubber, pen 0.1, 0.3, 0.8

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sailing,anime,etc

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sam817

Jan 8, 2011

Vampire Freaks

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Vampire Freaks is a Sorta Face book for all the true alt sub cultures with groups and radios of bands and other things it full of goth electro alternative experimental and the damn right weird music. i have a profile but just follow the link if it works  to my VF and from there take a look around and if u want create an account and then u can become a one of the growing Vampire Freaks. cheers ps it also has a shop that does alternative clothing which is linked to from the main page. Check out my VampireFreaks Profile

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sam817

Sep 13, 2010

i dont care

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i dont care how fucking useful the internet is i am not going to use this,destroyer of worlds till some one gives me the tools to do what i want to do with it, comment all u fucking want this shit is annoying a double edged i am sure some people are out to get me or to jsut fucking annoy me,death junky fibre optics death to cold keys, if u want me write a fuckign letter or ring me, or better still get on a bus or hot air ballon and come talk to me. so yeah has u cna see i am likly to get banned from da, yeah i wont be submitting till i find a better use of little bits of silicone, go save post man pat, and royal mail

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sam817

Sep 1, 2010

Tagged

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this was started by ~Raxla (https://www.deviantart.com/raxla) Rules: You must post these rules. Each tagged person must post ten things about themselves on their journal. You have to choose and tag ten people and post their icons on the same journal. Go to their profile pages and tell them you tagged them. No tag backs. 1. I write poems that are from my heart and  mind 2. I listen to some 80's sythpop and modern sythpop 3. i am a big fan of females nekos and support one in any way i can 4. I am madly in love with my little neko-chan 5. I Don't Twillight at all or any thing that makes the vampires sound soppy except from being human 6. I failed my a/s level mus